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I've been neglecting my account lately.
A lot.
I'm a father of 2 now, so time and sleep are non-existent. In the midst of another move, and working almost 40 hours a week as well, so that doesn't help my situation any either.
Which means that time to draw or paint figures is also non-existent.
I've got so many ideas too. I've compiled almost 5 full Fakedexes, each with over 200 Fakemon, following the typical patterns for Pokedexes (Legendaries, Semi-Legendaries, Trios, etc.)
That means over 1000 Fakemon are thought out and listed... I just need the time to draw them out now.
I haven't posted anything in a REALLY long time. So I figured I'd post a journal, at least, to let everyone know I'm still alive.
Hopefully I can get back to work soon. I'm REALLY hoping...
A lot.
I'm a father of 2 now, so time and sleep are non-existent. In the midst of another move, and working almost 40 hours a week as well, so that doesn't help my situation any either.
Which means that time to draw or paint figures is also non-existent.
I've got so many ideas too. I've compiled almost 5 full Fakedexes, each with over 200 Fakemon, following the typical patterns for Pokedexes (Legendaries, Semi-Legendaries, Trios, etc.)
That means over 1000 Fakemon are thought out and listed... I just need the time to draw them out now.
I haven't posted anything in a REALLY long time. So I figured I'd post a journal, at least, to let everyone know I'm still alive.
Hopefully I can get back to work soon. I'm REALLY hoping...
I do this a lot, don't I?
So, I've still got things to post, but SHOULD I? I mean, they're writings. No drawn art or anything lately, haven't been able to draw. That muse is on an extended vacation. My writing muse sends me letters once in a while though, so there's that.
Would anyone actually like for me to post some words? I know there's a few of you ol' timers out there that watched me for that. I need the creative outlet, so I'm asking.
Whoa.
I'm back for the time being.
I'll be submitting a little bit more than I ave in recent... years. It's going to be a lot of written word and poetry, though. Sorry for those who don't watch me for that. Sorry, not sorry.
Things have been less than stellar, let me tell you. Actually, I'm not going to tell you, but you can use your imagination. We're all artists here, we all have that ability. To use imagination, that is.
But, the news is that I'll be writing again, at least for the time being. You guys MIGHT see some line art from me, but I'm not too sure - I haven't been able to draw in what seems like forever. I just haven't been able to f
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I can't seem to find my muse anymore.
It's gone.
I've got the inspiration to draw, but can't find the talent I once had. Maybe it's a lack of time. Maybe it's hands broken past the point of repair, tied back together with old duct tape, and a drive fueled with cold, stale Denny's coffee.
Or a lack of said coffee, and time is all I need.
I so badly want to revisit the days of endless music ringing in my ears, and free coffee refills. I miss the nostalgic 80's Crayola booths, and the smell of stale cigarette smoke lingering in the air of the smoking section. I need my muse. I miss my muse.
It's an internal conflict.
What the actual fuck.
I'm not gonna lie. I haven't been able to draw in so long. I think I forgot how to "art". It's not for lack of trying, though.
I'll tell you all a secret. It's probably not a secret to the art community, as many other artists and writers have used it as a method of enlightenment and inspiration - but I was really only able to draw when I would get high. I haven't partaken in the shrubbery in quite a while, and as I said, I don't think I can draw without it.
But that's probably an excuse.
I can still write though. But my writing has evolved alongside my psyche. I've gotten darker, in a sense. My mind has changed since
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oooo the sound of the fakedexes is so tantalizing! i want you to past them but i SOOOO understand the stress and no time and all that.